As a youth, I would often go hiking with my father and sister. He had
custody on some weekends, and we would often just get out his worn book
of trails and choose one at random. One wintry day we struck out to hike
the mountains around chimney rock in North Carolina. There is an
elevator in the mountain, up to a visitor center, which we took in order
to hasten our jaunt. Well upon arriving at the trail we discovered that
it was completely iced over, a possibility
none of us had thought possible in those mostly mild southern
mountains. We could not hike the icy mountain that day so we turned back
to head towards our vehicle and seek some other distraction. As we
headed to the elevator the power in the visitor center went out. So no
elevator, and no hiking down the icy trails. A door was opened to a
shaft in the mountain, a small tight space with a tightly wound spiral
staircase descending into the darkness below. We were told all visitors
should take the stairs down, regardless of the fact there was no light
in there, regardless of the rust I could see on the top rails,
regardless of it shaking and creaking under our weight. So down I go,
spiraling into the darkness, on slabs of ancient metal slick with
condensation and smaller than my feet. I know any misstep might be my
last, as a tumble into those Stygian depths would certainly be fatal. So
I grip the rails as hard as I can, feeling the whole structure wobble
under the weight of so many people. Down and down we go, everyone silent
in fear, the only sounds dripping water and shuffling of feet. It was
complete and utter darkness, an eternity of it, just step after step,
creaking and wobbling. Occasionally I would touch the hand of the person
before or after me on the rail and recoil in fear. I knew others were
around me, could hear their breathing, but something about touching a
person in the dark on that hellish staircase terrorized me to the core.
For surely the noises around me could no longer be made by people? And
wouldn't a group of people have at least one person muttering, making
jokes to stem the fear? No, these creatures in the mountain depths were
too silent, too repetitive to be humans. I had somehow gone through a
wrong door, into a nightmare realm of always walking down and turning,
never seeing where I was going or where I was.
Until, at last, a
murky grey appeared below us. With the light the humanity began to
return to my companions. People began to make jokes, comfortable now
with the hope that it was soon ending. But I know the truth. For a while
in that subterrane shadow my fellow travelers were replaced with
mindless beasts. That is not what scares me however, what scares me is
thinking that perhaps I too had become something less than human for the
duration of that abominable descent.